March 6th. 3'O-something in the morning.
Still being burdened by my guilt and shame, still being pierced by my failures ----- I asked the Lord to give me His Word for me.....
(I've been reading from my digital bible for the longest time, and it's the first time I opened my physical bible and voila! ISAIAH ONE.) At first I thought it was too heavy to bear because it talks about the unfaithfulness of Israel, and the many warnings...
15 was too painful to see, and it is something I cannot bear "when you spread out your hands, I will hide my eyes from you; even though you make many prayers, I will not listen; your hands are full of blood. Wash yourselves, make yourselves clean, remove the evil of your deeds from before my eyes. cease to do evil, learn to do good; seek justice, correct oppression; bring justice to the fatherless, plead the widow's cause.
BUT GOD..... is faithful even the smallest asks. I asked for His Word and He really did give me a warning, but He also gave me an assurance with a promise.
Come now, let us reason together, says the Lord. though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be white as snow. though they are red like crimson, they shall become like wool. If you are willing and obedient, you shall eat the good of the land. but if you refuse and rebel, you shall be eaten by the sword for the mouth of the Lord has spoken.
You have spoken, and I know that it is so.
mercies new every morning indeed. ahhhh. Jesus!
Tonight too was very notable.... in my intimate moment with the Lord, in tears I was crying out "lord buti pa yung woman in the well, mary, martha, mary her hair touched you... i can't even touch you..." and IMMEDIATELY I was lured to embrace Johahn, and in my head a lot of flashbacks just happened.
Johahn, me and Jesus... those precious moments where I was tryingto make it through dusk til dawn, alone in my room - swaying, dancing with my newborn almost about to fall and I remember so vividly my prayer back then was "Lord hold us," because I really couldn't stand and keep myself awake for too long....
and then memories of how the Lord has held me and Johahn through and through. without fail. <3
what a sweet reminder that He is in us, He has a part of of Him in us ---- holding, touching Johahn is almost like holding the Lord too..... in a way. because Johahn is His GIFT, because He is gracious. :') aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand peace will RULE over our lives.
PLUS PLUS PLUS this Sunday's message ended with Joshua 14 : and the land rest from war.
